LocktownDog
Call Me a Cab
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As some of you know, I have been going through a horribly rough time the past couple of months. Sometimes I think its getting better ... we're still going through with the divorce but at least we're getting along real well. And then times where I hate myself and regret every moment of my life ... like yesterday where she had a bad day and took it out on me, calling me boring and old-fashioned and not much of a man. I've never been on a roller coaster like this before!
Last night after my swing shift as a casino cook, I came home to find her waiting up for me. I figured it was for one of our emotional talks. Ends up that she entered some charity cooking contest and was chosen to make vegetarian sloppy joes. What a joke. She can't even make toast without explicit instructions. She bought me a bottle of Bushmills as a bribe, and I ended up cooking for her. All the while I kept thinking I was a sucker and a weak-willed idiot. When a flash went through my head that I should call up one of my friends to complain, I realized that all of them were her friends first. Well at least I've got friends here and in another group I talk to. Most of you are faceless to me. Most of you are nameless to me. Yet I've had more support and kind words from the lot of you than I've had from even my parents or brother.
I didn't write this to whine and complain. I just merely wanted to lay things out and express how much your kindness and thoughts have meant. Thank you.
Richard
Last night after my swing shift as a casino cook, I came home to find her waiting up for me. I figured it was for one of our emotional talks. Ends up that she entered some charity cooking contest and was chosen to make vegetarian sloppy joes. What a joke. She can't even make toast without explicit instructions. She bought me a bottle of Bushmills as a bribe, and I ended up cooking for her. All the while I kept thinking I was a sucker and a weak-willed idiot. When a flash went through my head that I should call up one of my friends to complain, I realized that all of them were her friends first. Well at least I've got friends here and in another group I talk to. Most of you are faceless to me. Most of you are nameless to me. Yet I've had more support and kind words from the lot of you than I've had from even my parents or brother.
I didn't write this to whine and complain. I just merely wanted to lay things out and express how much your kindness and thoughts have meant. Thank you.
Richard